Hey! Remember me? I used to write regularly and then I abruptly stopped for no reason other than I have become incredibly lazy with nothing interesting to say. But I figured I'd stop by and recap a bit what's been going on.
Reading. Lots of books. Picked up one new one from NetGalley (The Cuban Affair by Nelson DeMille) and have dwindled the library pile down to 3 but I think I need to let one go. It's just too…something for me right now and I can't do it. Next Show Us Your Books is August 8.
Watching. Ozark. It's a Netflix show with Jason Bateman and Laura Linney and it's absolutely excellent. If you have a chance, I highly recommend it. I've also been watching Snowfall, I'm Dying Up Here, and I am really looking forward to the new season of Ray Donovan.
Eating. A new tomato sauce made with diced tomatoes, butter, a little bit of sugar, salt, and pepper. I have been purposefully making foods I can put it on almost daily. It's amazing.
Grieving. Chester Bennington. I was on my way home from Myrtle Beach, listening to the OJ parole hearing (yes. I did) and scrolling through IG when I learned that yet another amazing and talented performer took his own life. I've written extensively about this topic but I feel the need to address it again. As someone who battles depression, it absolutely breaks my heart that someone's demons can make them feel they're not worthy of life. DEPRESSION LIES. It lies so hard. And not just to famous people. It doesn't care who you are, how much money you have, what you look like, or anything else. It's an unfortunate equalizer and I wish there was more I can do to make anyone suffering realize that they matter. Their lives matter. People want you here. I want you here, even if we've never met. I care about you. And if anything comes from Chester's death, it's more awareness of depression and suicide and hopefully it opens up avenues for discussion and awareness and education. Break the stigma. People's lives literally depend on it.
Raging. Rehashing and recapping the horrors that 45 continues to inflict on this country is futile because as soon as you write about one thing, something new happens and it's a never ending shit cycle. You all know what's going on and I'm confident you're as appalled and disgusted as I am. Because the kind of hatred that he incites is despicable. It's beyond the pale. And it's fucking fascism. And if you don't think that what's going on smells like what happened in Germany, then we need to talk. And do not tell me that it's appropriating the term "Nazi". It's not. Nazism was born from a very specific political agenda rooted in hatred and authoritarianism and people being complicit and in denial and does that sound familiar? IT SHOULD BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT'S HAPPENING HERE. And I cannot take it one day longer. I live outraged on a daily basis due to the incomprehensible and inexplicable hatred of anyone who's not a rich white man. I don't fucking get it. Poor people, women, LGBT people…I simply cannot wrap my head around why their existence is so offensive and means that they are undeserving of basic decency and respect and access to services like food and health care. It violates the Judeo-Christian beliefs that he and his supporters and those afraid of him so openly and conveniently use when it fits their hateful and spiteful agenda and it makes me angry and sad and frustrated. The only comfort I have is knowing I'm not the only one and those with bigger and louder voices than me are using them to openly confront this despicable behavior. And also? The fucking Mets traded Lucas Duda. There really is no justice in this world.
Laughing. So, to offset all the rage, here's what's making me laugh:
So that's the latest. I'm hoping to get back to normal at some point soon. I miss you guys and I hope you all are doing well and I can't wait to catch up!
Linda Sheridan says
Ah, you are not lazy. You are caring for yourself by eating right
And exercising. Something I still have not managed
To do in my 61 years on the planet. I’m interested in that tomato
Sauce ❣️ I send healing lights and love to all who
Have bouts of depression and to their loved ones❣️ Empathy and compassion are so vital. Thanks to the universe John
McCain gave power to the people. Medicare fo
All or the same healthcare that saved him. I can’t even with
The White House situation. God help and heal and bless all!
Love, Steph’s Momma
Audrey says
Ozark does NOT sound like my kind of show, but I do love Jason Bateman 🙂
I don’t have the emotional energy to comment on Chester or Tr*mp. One makes me incredibly sad and one makes me rage harder than I ever have. Being a citizen of this country is very mentally taxing right now- and I’m not even a part of the demographic being attacked (at this moment).
Glad to see an update from you! You’re not lazy- enjoy your summer days!
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Nadine says
I am still so said about Chester. I read some pretty ugly comments from ignorant people about how he died and it is just a reminder that suicide and mental illnesses are not talked about near enough!!! On a lighter note, I love Jason Bateman so I will have to check out that show.
Tanya @ A Mindful Migration says
I just assumed your absence was vacation and post-vacation catch-up but I am glad you’re back! I didn’t post this week either, because I just wasn’t in the mood. Some days or weeks, you just gotta roll with what you got!
I kept pressing refresh on CNN last night because I was so sure that they were going to pass the skinny repeal and the House would lie and pass it versus conference with them. But McCain came through. I honestly didn’t think he would, even though we, the taxpayers, are ironically paying for his cancer treatments and he was coming to Washington to take healthcare away from millions. I also thought it was total shit, though, that could vote at 1:00 AM, ya know. While people sleep, we’re going to vote away your healthcare. Emperor Baby Fists just makes me want to scream and pull my hair out. I don’t know how such an ugly man got elected. Or how so many people believe in him. I get the diehard racists, but everyone else. Nope.
Rebecca Jo says
I am so sad about Chester… you think these stars have it all & you see that struggle is struggle for everyone.
I have seen that sneezing funny a few times & I CRACK UP every time. #beentheredonethat
SMD says
100 million rounds of applause for your nicely stated rage and explanation of why Nazi is the appropriate term here. Killing it. I also feel like some days I couldn’t tell you what bothers me most because so many things bother me, every minute of this administration. That extends to Congress and lackeys.
LOL @ the friends with benefits.
I am watching nothing and could not say for sure when I last watched anything but I love Jason Bateman and Netflix in general (over OITNB though, MFD still watches that).
Mackenzie says
Chester taking his life upset me so much. Not just because I am a Linkin Park fan, but because it breaks my heart when people feel like the only way out is to end their young and beautiful lives. Depression sucks and it is awful but we truly can’t let it win. So heartbreaking 🙁
Kay says
Girl blog slumps happen. I can tell you that … ha! I am still grieving for Chester and my heart goes out to his wife and kids. Mental illness sucks.
texerinsydney says
You know I’ve recently experienced my own blog hiatus, absence, slump. It happens to some of us.
I wrote a little something about Chester, because I was sitting with my laptop on a Saturday night reading his lyrics and thinking, relating.
My guy has been discussing the connection of Trump and pre-WWII Germany since before the election. Scary stuff that seems to only be getting worse.
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kathy @ more coffee, less talky says
I just saw ozarks on Netflix and have that queued up for this week!
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Lauren says
I started Ozark this weekend. I’m not loving it, mostly because I can’t cheer for any of the characters. Also Ruth is on The Americans and I hate her fake accent. But I’ll keep it up since it’s summer and the pickings are slim.
Seriously, every time I dive in to understand exactly what 45’s actions mean and WHY I should be incensed, he does something else. It’s hard to keep up and the rage is exhausting.
Ali says
1- I essentially stopped blogging (temporarily) for the same reason. Oops!
2. The Chester Bennington thing made me so sad.
3. I hate the POTUS and everyone in this clown show of an administration – I don’t even know where to begin on complaining because 19 AWFUL THINGS HAPPEN EVERY SINGLE DAY
4. I NEVER sneeze once.