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Pittsburgh, being Jewish, and other things

October 29, 2018 by Jana 7 Comments

I apologize if this makes no sense. I’ve been trying to process my thoughts about the Pittsburgh shooting since Saturday and this is the best I can do. I know I’ve left out a lot.

Yesterday, on Twitter, I saw a tweet asking for Jewish people to share what they love most about being Jewish*. I thought about answering but the truth is, I can’t. I legit do not know what I love most about it because it’s not something that, to me, is describable. It’s embedded in who I am, and it’s how I react to the world around me. Through the lens of being Jewish.

I mean, it’s not the sum total of me. There are many, many parts that are decidedly un-Jewish (whatever the fuck that means), and I’m probably more a cultural Jew than a religious, observant one, but when faced with things like grief, I find more comfort in my religion’s traditions than anything else.

And grief comprises a large part of my life lately.

This past weekend, as I’m sure you all know, a white supremacist murdered 11 people at a synagogue in Pittsburgh. I didn’t hear or read the news until a few hours after because I’ve been in the trenches with my dog, Barkley, who is having major health issues with not the greatest prognosis. When I finally had the chance to catch up, the horror that happened dominated the headlines. And I couldn’t stop reading.

Which was a curse and a blessing because when I read that the shooter went in screaming that all Jews should die, I lost it. I cried. Hard.

Because part of being Jewish is understanding that people fucking hate you. And if they don’t hate you initially, you fear that they’ll hate you when they find out you’re Jewish (or that’ll be the reason the stop liking you later on). They hate you for how you worship, they hate you because of lies spread by ignorant, hateful people, they hate you simply for existing. They hate you because of ignorance, and they think that casual antisemitism is not only funny but appropriate. We won’t discuss overt antisemitism because that’s a whole different conversation (yeah, you, asshole from Kentucky who dressed his kid as Hitler. I’m looking at you).

I have lost count of the instances of this casual antisemitism I’ve experienced. And it’s not just using the term “Nazi” to describe someone who’s a stickler about things (see: grammar nazi) and not realizing how it cheapens that word or what it invokes to a Jewish person. It’s thinking it’s funny to mispronounce Hebrew words or saying you didn’t realize someone’s Jewish because they “don’t look it” or cracking a terrible joke about saving money.

You learn to brush it aside (well, most of the time. Sometimes you need to be confrontational) with a smile. Just like you learn to accept acts of vandalism on temples or schools in predominately Jewish areas or bomb threats to Jewish Community Centers where people work and kids go to school and senior citizens receive meals and programming. You learn coping mechanisms because people you love work in these places, use these facilities. You thank G-d that at least it wasn’t those while still reeling in horror that it happened. You stand in solidarity with those directly affected.

Because, like it or not, it’s what you’re taught. Whether directly or indirectly, you’re taught fear. Even if you grow up fairly insulated, like I did on Long Island, you’re still fully aware of what goes on elsewhere. I’ll spare you the horror stories passed on to me. But what happened on Saturday is my lifelong paranoia come true.

Saturday was the full realization that hatred plus misinformation equals murder. It was an act of violence, an act of domestic terrorism, and it was a hate crime. Nothing else. To call it anything else demeans what happened.

Now, I know that people of color and other religions experience this as well. This isn’t unique to Jews. Hell, take a look at what else happened this past week alone. Particularly inside a Kroger, where a white supremacist killed two black people ONLY BECAUSE he couldn’t get into his first target–a black church.

Attacking people at their places of worship is so despicable there’s not even a word for it.

Men and women, there for Shabbat services or maybe a bris (I’m not entirely sure who was where), were MURDERED simply because they went to temple that day. They went to worship and celebrate a baby, in the way we believe it should be done. The most sacred of places was violated. Lives were taken.

It’s hard to brush this aside with a polite smile.

In Judaism, we have a tradition of, when you visit someone’s grave, you place a rock on the headstone. It’s to let them know you were there and is also a sign of respect for the deceased. Since I live so far away, I asked my friend Brynne to place a rock at a memorial set up for the victims. Not only did she do that, she placed one for several of our other Jewish friends. I still cry, knowing she did that for us.

I know in the wake of any tragedy like this, people want to help but it’s hard to know how. The only thing I can say is this: do what you can. Place a rock. Attend a vigil. Be aware of casual antisemitism. Donate to a victim’s fund. Pray. Talk about the victims, not the shooter.

Joyce Feinberg, 75

Richard Gottfried, 65

Rose Mallinger, 97

Jerry Rabinowitz, 66

Cecil Rosenthal, 59

David Rosenthal, 54

Bernice Simon, 84

Sylvan Simon, 86

Daniel Stein, 71

Melvin Wax, 88

Irving Younger, 69

Maurice Stallard (Kroger shooting victim)

Vickie Jones (Kroger shooting victim)

May their memory be a blessing.

I hate that this isn’t the first time I’ve written about mass shootings, and I hate even more that it won’t be the last. Not unless we take action. I need my child, any child really, to not be afraid to walk into a temple.

They’re already afraid to walk into school.

P.S. I’ve tried to keep politics out of this post; however, it’s almost impossible. When we have a leader spewing vitriol and lies and inciting violence, people listen. When they see him doing it with no consequence, people act. He can deny his culpability however he wants but we all know it’s true. The state of hatred in this country starts with the head. This head is fucking defective and needs to be voted the fuck out in 2 years, and in the meantime, people who will stand up to him need to be voted in. We need to fix this country.

P.P.S. This is my experience with being Jewish. There might be others who disagree with me. But that’s the thing–it’s a unique experience for all of us. One Jew does not speak for all Jews. We’re a diverse, opinionated bunch.

*If you have time, read through the whole thread. My answers match about 90% of those. Except the ones about Jewish food. I am not a big fan.

Filed Under: Life Tagged With: opinions, rants

On Wednesdays we wear pink but on Tuesdays we rant

July 24, 2018 by Jana 5 Comments

Over the weekend, you might have seen the now-deleted post on Forbes explaining why the author thinks Amazon stores should replace libraries. If you didn’t see it, consider yourself fortunate. Because it was a steaming load of shit written by someone who clearly hasn’t set foot in a library in years and is also so out of touch with his community and, I don’t know, people in general, that he genuinely thinks it’s a good idea.

He maintains that streaming services, Starbucks, and these bookstores would replace libraries because libraries are no longer vital to communities. He was also upset at his roughly $450 per year in taxes that go to supporting libraries. For what it’s worth, he lives on Long Island. This is a drop in the bucket compared to what Long Islanders pay in taxes for everything else. Didn’t see him complaining about those, though.

Because we need to call his ill-informed, horribly written piece of drivel what it actually is.

Poor shaming.

Well, maybe not so much shaming because he didn’t outright mock anyone who’s poor or try to make them feel bad about it or anything else that’s generally involved in shaming someone. But what he did do was let everyone know what a classist, elitist douchebag he is.

His post made it clear that knowledge, and access to that knowledge, should be made available only to those who can afford it. Unfortunately, this is a systemic, pervasive school of thought. Look at how we treat inner-city and rural schools compared to private and suburban schools. Hell, even in my district there’s a huge disparity in the quality of schools, particularly on the elementary school level.

In general, those who can afford it are routinely offered more AP classes, after-school clubs, student enrichment, and even basic necessities like heat. At home, internet is available at any given hour. Completing assignments isn’t a problem because access isn’t a problem.

And that’s what this man missed. (I mean, if I’m being completely honest, he didn’t miss it. He deliberately ignored it.)

Not everyone has those means. And they especially don’t have the means to buy books, pay for internet so they can have things like Netflix, and spending hours in a Starbucks probably isn’t possible, either. Because when you add all of those together, it’s way more than $450. Libraries provide a vital lifeline to those families who cannot afford that extra $450 per year.

So, again, his proposal to eliminate libraries and replace them with Amazon bookstores (and, side note, did anyone else wonder why he was pushing Amazon bookstores rather than independent bookstores or even Barnes and Noble? Just how much Amazon stock does he own?) is another way to say to low-income and poor people that it’s no one else’s job or responsibility to take care of you, you should be able to do this all yourself, and if you can’t, tough fucking shit.

You can’t sit with us.

I can’t, for the life of me, wrap my head around that school of thought. Why would you want to restrict people’s access to books or anything else libraries provide? And while you might not use the library because you have the luxury of choice not to, why take it away from anyone else who wants to use it? I know plenty of people who don’t use the library and they don’t give one iota of a fuck if I do. And I can guarantee they haven’t drilled so far down into their tax bill to pontificate on the internet about how the few dollars they do pay for libraries isn’t worth it.

Here’s the thing. I want information to be equitable and widely available. I want people to be able to read the news, see movies, and listen to music. Our entire society is enriched when people have access to all the art libraries provide, not to mention all the public services and events.

The other side of this is people who think knowledge should be available to only those who can afford it are the first to criticize a low-income mom or dad for their kids not being well-read or doing poorly in school. They’re the first to reproach the homeless man for blocking his entrance to Starbucks or not applying for a job when the library would give him access to the internet to look for employment or a place to stay warm. They’re the first to complain about people congregating in open spaces (legit question: do you think this guy hates public parks, too?) or not being able to find something they need on the internet. They’re first to reprimand parents for not putting their kids in summer camp or keeping them from experiencing the summer slide.

You can’t complain about something and then take away the method to fix it. That’s like the dumbest self-fulfilling prophecy ever.

Libraries provide a crucial function to members of a community on every income level. For me, I’ll gladly pay whatever the hell my tax bill is to my library because am 100% confident the amount of money I save by borrowing books is far greater than what I pay. Using his formula, if my tax bill is $450 and I read 80 books per year, I’m saving $750 per year, assuming $15 per book. And that’s just me. That doesn’t include the books my daughter reads. It doesn’t include the crop swap or food-for-fines drive that it does every year. It doesn’t include the vast children’s programming. It doesn’t include the free lectures, book clubs, or historical value my library adds to my town (no joke, it’s been around since 1847 and houses some really, really old books, maps, registers, and town history). Oh, not to mention the basement space that is occupied by an adult literacy program.

I will GLADLY pay those taxes to ensure that any and every family in my town has access to the exact same things that I have access to. I don’t give one flying fuck what their paycheck looks like.

The good news is that Library Twitter unleashed a fucking hellstorm on this guy. It was absolutely deserved, too. And if you want better written information or greater detail, I highly suggest checking out some of these threads and accounts because they’re way better than what I’ve done here:

  • Drunkest Librarian
  • Irondequoit Library 
  • This thread by this woman: https://twitter.com/ZannaAce/status/1021042748516945921
  • This opinion on CNN on why everything the Forbes guy said was wrong
  • And that one story I saw that talked about librarians at one library holding a sleepover for all the stuffed animals left behind and sharing pictures of it

You can go down a serious rabbit hole if you want to but the gist all this whole debacle, for me at least, is that despite the number of people who hate poor people and enjoy enacting policies and ideas that would further disenfranchise and repress them, a whole lot more of us love our libraries and think people who want to get rid of them are fucking idiots.

That’s absolutely an idea I can get behind.

Oh, and as for the guy who wrote the original post?

via Gfycat

P.S. I love Amazon. I use it with regularity. But never, ever will I suggest that it replace a library because, at the end of the day, I’d have no problem kicking Amazon out of my budget. Or Starbucks. Netflix might be harder but I could let it go. But I can’t say that I’d be able to go even a week without utilizing the library. In fact, when I moved here, one of the first things I did was check how far the library was from my house. 

Filed Under: Books Tagged With: books, opinions, rants, reading

Either I write a clever title or I don’t

April 17, 2018 by Jana 14 Comments

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So I’ve been thinking lately about how we live in these either/or situations:

  • Consume content or create
  • Dogs or cats
  • Spend all your money or save all your money
  • Watch TV or read books
  • Credit cards or cash
  • Exercise inside or outside
  • Stay home or work outside the home
  • Wine or beer
  • Hustle or self-care (this is actually a soapbox issue for me but we’ll skip it today)
  • Self-employed or work for someone else (another soapbox issue. I’m feeling soapboxy, apparently)
  • Blog for money or blog for fun
  • Coffee or tea
  • Cooking from scratch or buying pre-made food

And so on. Feel free to add your own.

The thing is, it doesn’t have to be that way. There doesn’t need to be these hard line “WORKING FOR YOURSELF IS THE ONLY WAY TO GET RICH” or “I ONLY READ BOOKS BECAUSE TV IS A WASTE OF TIME” statements.

First of all, they’re way more judgy than they need to be. I mean, we all make choices based on our moods and budgets and circumstances. Is it really necessary to put our values on someone else especially without knowing all the facts? For instance, I read plenty of books but I also watch my fair share of TV. I don’t feel like I’m a waste of a person because I park my ass on the couch in my soft pants and watch Netflix instead of going for a 12 mile hike and I don’t feel like it’s anyone’s business if I spend a Saturday watching 47 episodes of The Office or reading a 400 page book. I’d sure like your feedback if you’ve seen or read what I’m reading or watching because discussions are fun. I even want to hear how you spent your time.

But telling me that what I’m doing is wrong because it’s not what you would do? No.

Second, why? Why do we have to draw such lines? Why isn’t is possible to want both situations? To want to drink wine AND beer, even in the same night (although godspeed to you if you do)? To hold a full-time job but also have a side business? Even more, what’s wrong with wanting to spend your career as an employee instead of a retired-early entrepreneur? Why do we have to choose? It is possible to be a healthy, balanced person who dabbles on both sides of an equation. Life doesn’t work in absolutes. And we do ourselves, and others, a disservice when we try to convince them otherwise.

I get wanting to advocate for your beliefs. Writing about them on a blog, tweeting about them, sharing pictures on Instagram. I believe in respectful discussions or a contentious argument or two if you believe strongly in one thing over another. I think it’s awesome to share information and resources and opinions. We want others to think like we do and to form a community and support network of those who have the same preferences. And I love people who are passionate. It’s great to learn from them and read their experiences and find out why they’re so passionate.

But it’s entirely different to condescend or demean someone who feels or chooses differently.

I think that’s where this whole thing started. Seeing or hearing people condemn or mock others whose life choices are different, both on the small and large scale. I think that’s a bunch of bullshit. A reader isn’t superior to a TV watcher and I don’t think you’re better than me because you don’t drink coffee or alcohol. Working moms have it differently difficult than a stay-at-home mom. We all have struggles and advantages and we’ve made our choices based on weighing those against each other.

I’m not really sure what the point of this post is. I freely admit that it’s a hot mess of rambling nonsense. But if I had to sum it up, it would be this: it’s okay to equally enjoy things that seem to be in direct conflict with each other. Books and TV, cats and dogs, self-employment and entrepreneurship; none of them are mutually exclusive and there’s room in your life for everything if you want it. And if you don’t, ease up on those who aren’t steadfast in their beliefs or preferences.

Life isn’t always either/or.

Unless it’s either impeach trump or not. Then there’s only one real answer.

"So, tell me about yourself. Preferably something I can use either for myself or against you later."

Filed Under: Life Tagged With: advice, random, rants

Weekly recap, 2018, v5

February 16, 2018 by Jana 14 Comments

About a week ago I bought a new phone. And I wrote a post on it. Then WordPress ate the post and I was sad. Also angry. But at least now I know not to write any more posts on my phone. Cool for me.

My life isn’t interesting enough to do a two week recap and if you saw my tweet about the birds in my chimney, my flooded basement, and the dogs nonstop peeing in the house, you’re basically caught up. I probably don’t even need to finish this post but I have some time to spare so why not.

Reading. Finishing up The Breakdown and heading into 13 Minutes. Got a ton of books from NetGalley including the new BA Paris and Caroline Kepnes books (her newest is not about Joe which gives me all the sads but he’s apparently reappearing next year), purchased Crimes in Southern Indiana and A Wrinkle in Time. Thanks to everyone who joined Show Us Your Books this month and remember that the next one is 3/13.

Watching. Last weekend I watched The Florida Project. I don’t really know how to accurately describe it but it was incredible. The kids in the movie, particularly the main character, have more talent than most adults. The subject and plot are unsettling (kids living in poverty in the shadow of Disney World) but it was worth every single minute.

Listening.  A lot of 90s music and movie soundtracks. It’s been nice to shake things up. Still looking for some podcasts, though.

Thinking. About the families, friends, and community of Parkland. My heart is broken, my brain is fired up and full of rage, and my soul is crushed that continued murder of children remains a polarizing and divisive issue. One school shooting is too many; where we are now is unfathomable. This is no longer a 2nd amendment issue and it’s no longer a mental health issue. It’s a moral issue and our entire government is corrupt. Filling their coffers means more than human lives, and the lives of children at that. When churches, schools, movie theaters, concerts, and really anywhere public have become dangerous, we have an epidemic. We have a societal crisis. I am sickened at the lack of action and the continued bowing to the NRA. It shows, truly, where our politicians loyalties lie. And while I want to address how commonplace school and other mass shootings have become to the point that they’re only passing headlines in the news (some don’t even register at all), I can’t help but mention that OMG can we please stop focusing on the shooters? I truly, truly don’t give a fuck about them and I don’t want to remember their names. Let’s keep the stories focused on what matters: the victims, the communities, and how we can help them heal. Let’s focus on what action we can take to remove all the assholes who refuse to value life over money. Let’s focus on making sure every child feels safe, and IS SAFE, at school.

Laughing. So, I know this is kind of old but I just found it and you can read all of the tweets here.

Hope y’all have a great weekend! We’ll be heading into Philly for a cheerleading competition  so that should be something. See you on Tuesday!

Filed Under: Life Tagged With: Entertainment, favorites, rants, weekly recap

6 sentence rants

January 25, 2018 by Jana 12 Comments

There’s a lot I’m pissed about these days. Like, A LOT. I know it’s a common sentiment and we’re all in this together but sometimes it feels good to let it all out. But how do I pick WHICH issue to rant about? Answer: I don’t. I rant about them all. In short paragraphs because there are so many.

School shootings. We should have had common sense gun control laws after Columbine but that didn’t happen and then we should have had them after every subsequent single mass shooting. But we don’t and since the NRA owns the current administration, we’ll have to keep waiting and keep watching more kids shot to death at school. It is insane to me that kids, who are at school to learn and socialize and navigate life WHICH IS HARD ENOUGH AT THAT AGE, now have to stress about their safety and have another impediment to their learning (we’ll get to the Baltimore schools in a minutes). As a parent I am terrified and as a human I am disgusted. And also, how repugnant is it that the Oscars still made bigger headlines than the Kentucky school shooting on Tuesday and almost no Republicans including the POS in the White House even acknowledged it? I’m ashamed but I guess that’s where we are now. The murder of children isn’t even worth a tweet by the president.

Baltimore schools. Did y’all hear about this? Kids in Baltimore were going to school where there was no heat and OF COURSE there was a huge political battle to get it fixed. Money was eventually allocated to get the heat turned back on but why was this even an issue to begin with? The amount of hatred and contempt for low-income kids, particularly black and brown low-income kids, is sickening (see also: Congress dragging their feet for four fucking months before reissuing funding for CHIP ). Poor kids are no less valuable than middle and upper class kids, they can’t help the situations they were born into, they can’t help who their parents are and since they’re kids, we have an obligation to take care of them. Maybe we should fucking do that.

Larry Nassar. Speaking of protecting kids, why does it seem like every few years or so, a serial pedophile comes to light? Between Earl Bradley, Jerry Sandusky, and now this fucking piece of shit, it’s becoming incredibly hard to trust anyone with your kids. I still want to see those who were complicit in allowing this to persist brought to justice but for now, I’ll settle for knowing that Judge Aquilina is a BADASS, as are Aly Raisman and all the women who stood up in court and confronted him, and he got what he deserved. And Aquilina’s contempt and disgust for Nassar’s statement? Exactly what I need to see. (And if you think there’s something wrong with her sentence or her reaction towards him, I don’t want to hear it. I’ve seen worse for people who’ve done less and also, he fucking deserves it. All of it. And then some.)

Bank of America. What happens in a meeting where wealthy people who run a billion dollar company decide that it’s a good idea to charge not wealthy people for the privilege of keeping a checking account with them if you don’t keep a balance of $1500 or have direct deposits of $250 per month? How do you come to that conclusion? I legit want to know. Fees for checking accounts aren’t necessarily unusual but ones like this, especially when the checking accounts used to be free, are exactly what keep low-income people unbanked or in a perpetual cycle of overdrafting their accounts. When I participated in the FinX event in Dallas, I learned first-hand just how hard it is to access your money when you don’t have a traditional bank and shit like this will make it that much harder. And now that an advocate for the payday loan industry is running the CFPB, more and more people are about to get fucked. Hard.

The current administration. Every single one of them in it. They’re all at fault for what’s happening from the shutdown to the stripping of environmental protections to their racist policies to the rampant lies spewing like vomit from Linda Blair’s mouth to god knows what else because as soon as a I write something down, they go and do something else. Fuck them. Fuck everything they do, everything they stand for, every way they’re fucking up this country for their own selfish gains. And I truly, from the depths of my soul, do not understand how anyone can look at what’s happening and actually be okay with it.

Other topics I wanted to talk about but this post is getting too long:

  • David and Louise Turpin. Basically a sadistic version of the Duggars, and I hope they rot in fucking hell with the aforementioned pedophiles.
  • Eagles hype. I can’t live like this for another 2 weeks. I just can’t. Please make it stop.
  • Sarah Sanders. An off-shoot of my current administration rant but honestly, how does this woman look at herself in the mirror at the end of the day? How can she defend, publicly, what is so morally abhorrent and feel good about it?
  • TV show reboots. Enough is enough. Stop bringing everything back. Some things just need to be left alone.
  • FOX News. SHUT. THE. FUCK. UP. Seriously. Stop fucking talking.

Okay.

Now I feel moderately better.

Thanks for listening.

So what do you feel like ranting about? 

Filed Under: Life Tagged With: rants

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