10 reasons I’m losing weight

One of my long-term goals is to get back down to my ideal weight. Admittedly, I have a long way to go but I’ve lost 16ish pounds from my heaviest nonpregnancy weight ever so I need to be pleased with that because at least it’s a start. 

I’m not going to lie–losing weight is hard for me. Small setbacks derail any progress I make and then it takes awhile to get my focus and discipline back. It’s during those times when I really need to revisit my motivation for why I’m trying to do it in the first place. 

That’s what I’m taking some time to do today and also share it with you on the off-chance someone else is struggling and could also use a little pick-me-up. 

On the surface, I have all the normal reasons behind my choice to lose weight  wanting to have a normal dose of self-esteem and be healthier and a good example for the child and look better in clothes and be okay wearing a bathing suit and shorts in public and actually being in pictures But, deep down, there are other reasons. Reasons that are probably slightly abnormal but in my brain make total sense because I’m mildly fucked up. 

Reasons like:losing weight

  1. I don’t want the weight on my driver’s license to be a lie anymore
  2. If I go missing, and they have to put my weight on a missing person poster, I don’t want to be ashamed
  3. When I have to get on the scale at a doctor’s office, it’s no fun to have them think you weigh less than you do and then they have to move that black box up to the next range and I know what you’re thinking, nurse.
  4. I’m too broke to buy more fat clothes but I have plenty of smaller ones. Free clothes shopping is where it’s at.
  5. When I say I ate my weight in something, I’d like to not feel like I just said I ate the equivalent of an elephant
  6. If I keep gaining and my husband keeps losing, I might wind up weighing more than he does. He’s 6″1′. I’m 5″3′. That can’t happen.
  7. I want to go parasailing but I won’t because I have to tell them how much I weigh. 
  8. Do you ever stand next to someone and feel like two of them equal one of you? Me, too. 
  9. I might want to get on a seesaw one day. 
  10. My 20 year high school reunion is in May. There’s still a 1% chance I might go.

How about you guys? Are you trying to lose weight? What are some of your reasons for it?

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P.S. Does anyone remember the episode of Mad Men when Betty called it “reducing”? I’m not sure how I feel about referring to it like that although it makes total sense but I’m glad we’re not living in the 60s and that’s what it’s normally called because that would make me feel even worse.

All these things that I’ve done

A special thank you to The Killers for today’s post title as I have had this song stuck in my head for days.

When I wrote my 40 by 40, I struggled a bit with coming up with a list because, thus far, I’ve been fortunate and I have done, seen, and been to a good number of places. Don’t be mistaken, there’s still a ton left to do and see and try but I have a pretty good list going and, as part of my Choose Your Own Adventure Challenge, I said I’d write it down. So I did. And, as proof and accountability and all that jazz, I’m sharing it with you guys. 37 things for 37 years I’ve been alive.

Oh, sorry for the lack of pictures but we’ve been living in our house for 18 months and for the life of me, I still cannot find my photo albums. But I assure you, I’m not lying. If I were, this list would be way more interesting.

37 years

  1. Traveled to France and saw all the things including the Louvre, the Notre Dame, L’Arc de Triomphe, Carcassone, Nice, the Palace of Versailles, and I spent a night on one of those overnight train things
  2. Stood on a glacier (and drank water from said glacier)
  3. Slept on a Native American reservation
  4. Been published (in a compilation with other writers, in an eBook about writer’s block. Not a novel)
  5. Had a stereotypical spring break in Cancun
  6. Been to both the East and West parts of Canada. Not the middle. (Is there even anything in the middle?)
  7. Traveled to a number of islands including Aruba, the Bahamas, and Jamaica
  8. Participated in the Conch Republic Independence Day celebrations, including the mock Navy battle in the harbor
  9. Speaking of Key West, I’ve also seen the sunset at Mallory Square
  10. Ridden in a 1954 Bentley
  11. Visited the Grand Canyon
  12. And Niagara Falls
  13. Went white water rafting on the Snake River
  14. Camped at Yellowstone and Yosemite
  15. Met a celebrity 
  16. Interviewed a celebrity
  17. Been an extra on a TV show (Romper Room)
  18. Seen Broadway shows
  19. Visited all the major attractions in California including Alcatraz, Lombard Street, the San Diego Zoo, and Hearst Castle
  20. Attended a MLB playoff game
  21. Won a beer pong tournament
  22. Hiked in Bryce Canyon
  23. Gotten my Master’s degree (I used to be smart)
  24. Learned another language
  25. Given a speech in public
  26. Quit a job I hated
  27. Made pie from scratch, including the crust
  28. Performed a Zumba routine on stage
  29. Cooked Thanksgiving dinner by myself
  30. Attended TV show tapings
  31. Seen my favorite band in concert (4 times!)
  32. Visited Disney World and Disney Land
  33. Been to Bourbon Street (aka the most disgusting street in all the land)
  34. Been to a music festival
  35. Sat in club box seats at an NFL and MLB game
  36. Played with and fed penguins
  37. Had a pinup photo shoot (these pictures have never, nor will they ever, see the light of day)

Looking at the list, I’m pretty proud of what I’ve done so far and I’m so excited for what’s still to come. Should be a fun few years until I’m 40 and then beyond.

Now you go. Tell me some of the things you’ve done!

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This week in: Randomness at its finest

 this weekThis week in adulting…Realizing I need to get back to work. Staying home is great and wonderful and when I had my mentoring program to run I was busy and had income but now I don’t and I’m bored. Even though I love writing and am still working on a book, I’ve come to the grown up conclusion that the odds of me making a living as a novel writer are very slim and I like earning money. So now I look for a job. Preferably one that involves writing.

This week in reading…Of the four books I’ve finished this month, I’ve enjoyed all but one. Last night I started Carolyn Kepnes’s You, per Steph’s recommendation. I’m about 50 or so pages in and holy hell, is this a creepy book. If it starts out this way, I can only imagine what comes next. 

This week in TV…I finally caught up with Better Call Saul. I like it! Dark and weird, just the way I like my shows. Also, did you guys catch the SNL special on Sunday? How awesome was the Opera Man appearance? And Celebrity Jeopardy? And Wayne and Garth? Fun fact: I met Adam Sandler when I was in college. He’s as odd as you’d expect.

This week in frustration…Early morning cheer competitions, insomnia, school problems, finding out that at 8 years old, my daughter needs to start with orthodontia, staggeringly endless cold weather, fidgety pets, unexpected expenses, and writer’s block are all on my nerves this week.

This week in listening…The best $10 I spend every month is on my Spotify subscription. I have been listening to my Shinedown radio station for hours every day and it makes me so, so happy. Especially when a song I haven’t heard in a while comes on. Also, if you love 90s music like I do, check out the #ThrowbackThursday playlist. It’s spectacular.

This week in awesomeness…John Green. I love him. And this week, he apparently learned that a quote, misattributed to him, was actually written by a 13 year old Nerdfighter and he took to his YouTube channel to make it right. I wish more people would do this. Not only own up to the mistake but rectify the situation. This is the kind of stuff that makes you a badass and earn respect. Not the shit that Kanye pulls.

This week in sports…Pitchers and catchers reported this week. Everything is good again. And my beloved Mets were not picked to finished last in their division! That honor went to Philly and that makes me happy. #sorrynotsorry, Philly friends. 

This week in hilarity…Do you guys watch Billy on the Street? With Billy Eichner? I freaking love it and it’s hysterical. This week, he did an episode with Michelle Obama and Big Bird and, if you can get past the fact that Big Bird sounds completely different and the mini-soap box platform for healthy eating, it’s worth the 12 minutes. If nothing else, fast forward to around 11:00 and watch the lightning round. Trust me. And also this:

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What’s going on in your life this week? Any exciting weekend plans?


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